My Little Brother

I have a cute little brother. His name is Angelo and I fondly call him Chieng-Chieng. I was the one who gave that nickname. I know it sounds weird but I think it's cute and I love it!

Freaky Friday

I don't know why i feel this way...

I can't understand my self. There's something I wanted to say but I can't, I just can't. And I don't know.

It's freaky friday because I have to cram up? haha.. i dont really know what's hapenning to me.
I started to like math, I can understand it now. Hopefully it will continue until the end. I'm afraid of my Accounting and Physics because I had a hard time understanding it. I like English because we don't have to worry too much but I'm thinking on my term paper. OMG!

haha

{{{{confused}}}}

i feel numb!

Freaky Friday

Rated PG

Last Saturday, 1st of December 2007, the class of 3-Pongracz(06-07) and 3-Gonzales(07-08) had a friendship game, it's called Rated PG.

We had basketball(boys&girls), volleyball, softball and war game! My game is softball. We had snacks after volleyball... the food were great! I had sandwich, juice, pansit and barbecue(from BBQ station). It's so yummy...i'm full. Then we proceed to softball and war games!!! bina-saay na!!! hahaha.......



my beloved classmates... Pong-ROCKS!!! WOHOO!



WE ARE UNITED AGAIN! I LOVE THIS CLASS. THIS COULD BE MY BEST CLASS IN HIGH SCHOOL.





This is in the softball field...we are playing against 3-Gonzales. No one could beat us! Hehehe. Look at our faces, it's filled with so much joy! I feel like I'm in cloud 9 this time.



The game's over...it's time to go home. But not yet! We still ahve to go to XU main...it's laag time again! Hehehe.;-)



Look at us!!! we are a happy class...I can't replace this kind of people. They are now enshrined in my heart..char lang!



Heeya! We are rockin! Dude, definitely one of a kind! What can you say about this pic? Great isn't it? ;-D




----posing gamay--->> PONGRACZ CUTE!! <<------- ayaw na mu palag!----<<

THIS IS THE BEST CLASS I HAVE IN HIGH SCHOOL!
WOHOO! HEEYA! YAHOO!

Hands Down by Dashboard Confessonal

Isn't this video romantic???
I like Sakura and Syaoran!!!!!

Heavy Loaded

Today is one of the heavy loaded days of my senior life. I would say that this not a typical kind of life. Every day, you must strive and struggle in able for you to survive in this huge and dismal world. "Life is not easy andit will never be,"my teacher said it once. I agree. Life is full of life forcing battle yet it is filled with wonderful adventure. You could always make your life comfortable. It's up to you. Yours is the choice to make. You have actually the choice in what kind of life you want to live in. As for me, life is what we make it.

I know this is just a part of my struggle and there's still many to come along life's way. Problems are already part of our lives. It is just a test wether we can handle it. I think, problems and struggles are God's test until where will our faith on him end. I know, God is always there for me and my faith in him will be eternity.

Got a problem? Just remember this:
"Fellows,no matter how toughit gets, Christ is always with you."

"Just smile to the world andthe world smiles back at you!"

My Top Ten Music

1. Beautiful Girls reply -Jojo
2.Your Guardian Angel- Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
3.Stolen- Dashboard Confessionals
4.Do You Know-Enrique Iglesias
5. (can't remember the title)- Avril Lavigne
6. Boston
7.Home
8.Out of My League
9. Umbrella- Mandy Moore Version
10. Samson-Regina Spektor

The FUN reTreAt @ Malaybalay city, Bukidnon

The smiling faces of 4-Mayer with Ma'am Tess Daba...







inside the bus...


in the entrance of Jesuit Retreat House...we're going home, huhuhu...=(


inside the Transfiguration...

The pyramid...


before leaving...


The class seal...


The Class of IV-Bl.Rupert Mayer

"WE ARE UNITED!"

Your Guardian ANGEL

When I see your smile
Tears run down my face I can't replace
And now that I'm stronger I've figured out
How this world turns cold and breaks through my soul
And I know I'll find deep inside me I can be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

It's ok. It's ok. It's ok.
Seasons are changing
And waves are crashing
And stars are falling all for us
Days grow longer and nights grow shorter
I can show you I'll be the one

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

Cuz you're my, you're my, my true love, my whole heart
Please don't throw that away
Cuz I'm here for you
Please don't walk away,
Please tell me you'll stay, stay

Use me as you will
Pull my strings just for a thrill
And I know I'll be ok
Though my skies are turning gray

I will never let you fall
I'll stand up with you forever
I'll be there for you through it all
Even if saving you sends me to heaven

I love this song, hope you love this too. =)wee!

La Joie de mon coeur vous est!

Picture taken at Mcdo during our farewell party. The title is in French means the joy of my heart is you. The title is not related with the blog, so? hehe.



This is during our Christmas party. The party I could not forget because we have lotta fun. Yes...

haha. bored lang.

4-Bl. Rupert Mayer Class Retreat

Last September 28-30, 2007we had our class retreat at Jesuit Retreat House in Malaybalay city, Bukidnon. It was such a wonderful experience, a memorable one. Definitely the best time we could open up and bond to our classmates...weeee.

The night before our retreat, I hurriedly pack my things because I haven't prepare my due due to my hectic schedule, char! Thank God, all was set and done!

The day...

I was quite excited yet nervous. I am excited for our ride in the bus yet I am still wondering what will happen during our stay there. I am wondering about the palanca letters.

You Have Stolen My Heart...;-(

Stolen

We watch the season pull up its own stakes
And catch the last weekend of the last week
Before the gold and the glimmer have been replaced,
Another sun soaked season fades away

You have stolen my heart

Invitation only, grant farewells
Crash the best one, of the best ones
Clear liquor and cloudy eyed, too early to say goodnight

You have stolen my heart

And from the ballroom floor we are in celebration
One good stretch before our hibernation
Our dreams assured and we all, will sleep well

You have stolen
You have stolen my heart

I watch you spin around in the highest heels
You are the best one, of the best ones
We all look like we feel

You have stolen my
You have stolen my heart

i really love this song, Stolen by Dashboard confessionals.
hope you love it too.

We had our CSAT today. I just hope I got a good score, at least 60 percentile. I don't want to take again. If I pass this one, I'll be granted a scholarship. So be it.

It's half day and my eyes feels bad but I still go to internet cafe. Hehe.

enemy number one

BUT REMEMBER THE FACTS OF LIFE

The most destructive habit (Worry)
The greatest Joy (Giving)
The greatest loss (Loss of self-respect)
The most satisfying work (Helping others)
The ugliest personality trait (Selfishness)
The most endangered species (Dedicated leaders)
Our greatest natural resource (Our youth)
The greatest "shot in the arm (Encouragement)
The greatest problem to overcome (Fear)
The most effective sleeping pill (Peace of mind)
The most crippling failure disease (Excuses)
The most powerful force in life (Love)
The most dangerous pariah (A gossiper )
The world's most incredible computer (The brain)
The worst thing to be without (Hope)
The deadliest weapon (The tongue)
The two most power-filled words (I Can)
The greatest asset (Faith)
The most worthless emotion (Self-pity)
The most beautiful attire (A SMILE)
The most prized possession (Integrity)
The most contagious spirit (Enthusiasm)


AND ALSO REMEMBER:

THE TONGUE CAN BE YOUR WORST ENEMY!


Your words, your dreams, and your thoughts have
power to create conditions in your life.

What you speak about, you can bring about.
If you keep saying you can't stand your job,
you might lose your job.

If you keep saying you can't stand your body,
your body can become sick.

If you keep saying you can't stand your car,
your car could be stolen or just stop operating.

If you keep saying you're broke, guess what?
You'll always be broke.

If you keep saying you can't trust people,
you'll always have someone in your life to hurt
and betray you.

If you keep saying you can't find a job,
you will remain unemployed.

If you keep saying you can't find someone
to love you or believe in you,
you will attract more experiences to confirm
your beliefs.

If you keep talking about a divorce or breaking up
then you might just end up with it.


Turn your thoughts and conversations around
to be more positive and power packed with
faith, hope, love and action.

Don't be afraid to believe that you can have
what you want and deserve.

Watch your Thoughts, they become words.
Watch your words, they become actions.
Watch your actions, they become habits.
Watch your Habits, they become character.
Watch your Character, it becomes your Destiny.

The minute you settle for less than you deserve,
you get even less than you settle for.

Thought I would share this with you.
"In the search for me, I discovered truth.
In the search for truth, I discovered love.
In the search for love, I discovered GOD.
And in God, I have found Everything.


Be Blessed & BLESS Others - SHARE THIS!



Watch how your circumstances and situations
begin to change when you change the way you speak.

Pass this on to as many people as you can so
they can change their lives, too.

"Life is like melted butter. . .once things
cool down, it can be reshaped!"

Table 3 Rates of Labor Force, Employment, Unemployment and Underemployment, by Sex and Region: July 2007
(In Percent)

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Labor Force | Employment | Unemployment | Underemployment
Selected Indicators Participation | Rate | Rate | Rate
Rate | | |
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Philippines 63.6 92.2 7.8 22.0

N C R - National Capital Region 61.3 87.0 13.1 16.8
C A R - Cordillera Administrative 67.0 94.9 5.1 18.3
I - Ilocos Region 60.4 92.1 7.9 19.6
II - Cagayan Valley 67.7 96.2 3.7 16.5
III - Central Luzon 60.2 88.5 11.5 14.1
IV-A - CALABARZON 62.8 90.8 9.2 15.0
IV-B - MIMAROPA 69.6 95.6 4.4 28.4
V - Bicol Region 63.8 94.4 5.6 38.4
VI - Western Visayas 63.9 93.2 6.8 27.0
VII - Central Visayas 63.8 93.0 7.0 21.9
VIII - Eastern Visayas 65.3 95.3 4.7 29.2
IX - Zamboanga Peninsula1/ 69.5 96.1 3.9 28.3
X - Northern Mindanao 68.8 93.1 6.9 30.3
XI - Davao Region 65.7 93.3 6.7 21.7
XII - SOCCSKSARGEN 65.4 95.9 4.0 26.2
XIII - Caraga 66.0 91.6 8.4 29.3
A R M M - Autonomous Region
in Muslim Mindan 56.6 95.7 4.3 14.9

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Notes: Estimates for July 2007 are preliminary and subject to change.
Figures were estimated using the 2000 Census-based Population Projections.
1/ Starting July 2003, Isabela City (Basilan) is part of Region IX.
2/ Starting July 2003, Basilan province, which was formerly part of Region IX, is now under ARMM by EO 36.

Source: National Statistics Office, July 2007 Labor Force Survey

Page last updated: September 14, 2007

Do You Know (Ping Pong Song)

Enrique Iglesias Do You Know (Ping Pong Song) Lyrics



Haha. I really love this song.

10 things I love about you [online]

10 things I love about you

If I could sum up

10 things

bad

about you

I would run out of things

For you are not bad

For you are not mean

If I could sum up

10 things

good

about you

I would not run out of words

To describe

Your goodness

Your loyelty

Your trust

Our love

Will forever be loved

By the 10 things

I love about you

I Hate from online

I hate the way I hate you,

I hate it when you are near,

I hate the way you comb your hair,

I hate it when you’re here

I hate the way the sky is blue

I hate the grass is green,

I hate the way you wear your clothes

I hate it when you’re mean

I hate the way the ocean’s blue

I hate the clouds are white,

I hate your accent oh, so much

I hate it when we fight

I hate the way that you are tall

I even hate your height,

I hate it when you beg for more

I hate it that you’re right

But most of all I hate the way that all this isn’t true

And I hate the way I feel, when I’m not with you

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Poems from online

Poems

Never say I love you if you don’t really care. Never talk about feelings if they aren’t really there. Never hold my hand if your going to break my heart. Never say you’re going to if you don’t plan to start. Never look into my eyes if all you do is lie. Never say hi if you really mean goodbye. If you really mean forever, say you will try. Never say forever because it makes me cry!

Forget his name forget his face, forget his kiss his warm embrace. Forget the love you once knew. Remember he has someone knew. Forget him when they play your song. Remember you cried all night long. Forget how close you two once were. Remember he has chosen her. Forget how you memorized his walk. Forget the way he use to talk. Forget the things he use to say. Remember he has gone away. Forget his laugh forget his chin. Forget the dimples on his chin. Forget the way he held you tight. Remember hes with her tonight. Forget the time that went so past. Forget the love that moved it’s passed. Forget he said id leave you never. Remember now hes gone forever.

Every time I think about you my tears I can’t hide. I just want to be by your side. I know I said I wasn’t gonna cry for you but just being without you makes me so blue. I sit in my bed looking up at the sky, asking why I can’t get you out of my mind. Maybe you’re that guy that’s one of a kind. And now that you’re gone I can’t move on. You were the guy that made me smile, wow im not gonna know that feeling for a while.

That feeling went by so fast and I never knew I was gonna have to put you in the past. We said we weren’t gonna to forget and how it happened I regret. Now there’s nothing I can do just sit here and think about you.

You gotta take the good with the bad. Smile with the sad. Love what you got and remember what you had. Learn to forgive and never forget. Learn from your mistakes but never regret. People change, things go wrong. Just remember life goes on.

One night the moon said to me “If he makes you cry why don’t you leave him?” I paused for a while then I looked back at the moon and said “Moon would you ever leave your sky?”

Im not supposed to love you, im not suppose to care. Im not supposed to live my life wishing you were here. Im not suppose to wonder where you are or what you do. Im sorry I can’t help myself because im in love with you.

Tell my heart to stop beating. Tell my mind to stop thinking. Throw a stone in the ocean and tell it to stop sinking. Tell the sky not to be so blue, well it’s like telling me not to be in love with you.

Rose are red violets are blue I cannot go my whole life without you. The rain might pour and the sun might shine and im still wishing you were mine. Why can’t you love me the way I am? Not for who people want me to be. Im not the prettiest or the smartest, in fact im awkward and shy. I wish you could love me for who I am. I love you so much I want to cry. My heart is breaking every time you deny me. Why can’t you just accept the way I am? Why can’t you just love me?

I was cold and hurting lost in the night wandering and searching for heavens light. I saw the night clearing when you spread your rainbow wings but little did I know what joy you would bring. From that moment on a friendship did start you kissed away my tears and sheltered my heart. I blessed the day God sent him from above but then I grew fearfully for I had fallen in love. I told you this feeling and what did you say? You said you liked our friendship and that’s how it would stay. I cried for a friendship I thought I lost but when I felt your warm, gentle hand. You then whispered in my ear that by my side you’ll forever stay.

The Boy Who Always Loved Me

The Boy Who Always Loved Me
“What do you think they’re doing?” asked 7 year old Melanie Johnson, as she looked through Joe’s window towards the street.
“Kissing duh.” Said 8 year old Joe Jonas. Melanie was staying at the Jonas’ house while her mom, Karen, went on a date that night. They had just pulled up outside Joe’s house and hadn’t come out of the car yet.
“For that long?” Melanie couldn’t understand how you could kiss for that long.
“I guess…” Joe said. They got bored waiting for her mom to get out of the car, so they played Candyland instead.
About 10 minutes later Joe’s door opened and a 10 year old Kevin was standing in the door way.
“Melanie your mom’s here. She says its time for you to go home.” Kevin adjusted his glasses. Melanie and Joe flew past Kevin and ran down the stairs.
“Mommy!” Melanie cried and ran up to her mom. Her mom picked up her in a hug and sat her on her hip.
“Thank you so much for watching her Denise.” Karen said warmly.
“Oh it’s no problem. She’s welcome any time.” Denise smiled while she held 4 year old Nick, who had a big smile on his face.
“Come on kiddo. We need to get you home.” Karen said getting ready to walk out the door.
“Bye Joey!” Melanie squealed and waved.
“Bye Melanie!” Joe waved excitedly back.
When Melanie left, Joe headed upstairs to his room. He shared a room with Kevin. He walked in and sat down on his bed.
“Melanie’s mom came back a while ago.” Joe said starting a conversation. Kevin looked up from what he was doing.
“Oh yea?” Kevin said half interested.
“Yea. They were in the car for a long time.” Joe said.
“Oh…” Kevin went back to what he was doing.
“Do you think they were kissing?” Joe asked.
“Yea probably.” Kevin said concentrating.
“Why?” Joe asked. Kevin sighed and put what he was doing to the side.
“Why were they kissing?” Kevin asked.
“Mhmm.” Joe replied.
“Because it’s fun.” Kevin said simply.
“Have you kissed anyone?” Joe’s eyes widened.
“No, not yet. I just heard it was fun. I don’t know if it is, but I bet it is.” Kevin grinned.
“Oh ok.” Joe said suddenly not interested anymore in the topic. He changed into his pajamas and went to sleep.
Melanie’s mom came into her room to tuck her in.
“Mommy. What were you doing in the car?” She asked curiously.
“Grown up stuff honey.” Her mom said gently.
“Like what?” Melanie asked.
“You’ll find out when you’re older.” Karen leaned down and kissed her on the forehead, “ Get some sleep Mel, good night.”
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The next day Melanie went back over to the Jonas’ to play with Joe.
“Let’s go play at the pond!” Joe said dropping his crayons.
“Ok!” Melanie said excitedly. The Jonas’ had a pond behind their house. Their parents had been taking them to it ever since they first met. Now that they were a little older and taller, their parents thought it was safe for them to play by themselves. The pond was only 2 ½ feet deep.
“I’ll race ya!” Joe said as they walked towards the pond. Melanie was about to respond when Joe took off.
“Hey!” She called and ran after him, “You cheated!” That didn’t stop Joe from running even faster.
“I won!” Joe exclaimed when he got to the pond.
“That’s because you cheated…” Melanie was out of breath when she finally reached the pond. Joe shrugged his shoulders and grinned.
“You’re mean.” Melanie pouted and crossed her arms.
“I’m sorry Mel.” Joe said sadly. He didn’t like to see his friend mad.
“You mean it?” Melanie looked over at Joe.
“Yea.” Joe said.
“Ok then.” Melanie smiled.
“Look bugs!” Melanie ran over and looked at them.
“Ooh! I want to see!” Joe said and ran over.
While they were playing with the bugs, Joe ran inside and got a magnifying glass. He put a caterpillar under it and let the sun hit it. Melanie and Joe laughed as they saw it starting to smoke. (A/n: Evil little kids aren’t they? Lol)
Pretty soon they got bored with the bugs and sat down next to each other.
“Oh, I asked Kevin what your mom and her boyfriend dude were doing last night.” Joe said.
“And?” Melanie asked as she drew in the dirt.
“He said they were kissing.” Joe watched what she was doing.
“You were right.” Melanie grinned at Joe.
“Yea I know.” Joe said proudly.
“But why were they kissing?” Melanie was confused.
“Kevin says it’s fun.” Joe said.
“Fun?” Melanie raised her eyebrows.
“Yea. I don’t know how though…” Joe said.
“Me either…” Melanie agreed.
“You want to try, just to see what’s so fun about it?” Joe asked innocently.
“Ok.” Melanie shrugged her shoulders.
“On the count of three. 1…2…3.” Joe smashed his lips to Melanie’s. About 2 seconds later, they pulled away with disgusted looks on their faces.
“Ew!” Melanie shrieked.
“That’s not fun!” Joe said wiping his mouth.
Ever since that day thing’s changed for Joe and Melanie.9 YEARS LATER
“I got the pink square.” Joe said and moved his gingerbread man up one space.
“Ha! You only moved one space!” I laughed.
“Well let’s see what you get.” Joe said. I picked up a card from the top of the pile and saw that I got the blue square.
“Yes! I get to move 6 spaces!” I said excitedly. If you couldn’t tell already, Joe and I were playing Candyland. So what if we have been playing that game since we were little kids, it never gets old. Oh yea, I’m Melanie Johnson. I’m 16 and Joe is 17. Ever since I was 4, when I fell out of the jungle gym and Joe helped me up, we had been the best of friends. Nothing ever separated us. Ok well occasionally Joe would go out on a date or something, but then right after he would come over to my house, no matter how late it was.
Now, you might be wondering if I have ever left Joe to go out on a date, and if I have gone back to Joe’s house afterwards. Well I’ve never had a boyfriend before. Nobody has ever asked me out. I’m guessing it’s because I’m not the skinniest person ever. I’m just a little bit overweight, but at my school I’m treated like an outcast. I have never really had any friends besides the Jonas’. If it weren’t for them I wouldn’t have anybody. They always took care of me when my mom was gone. I was friends with Kevin and Nick, but not like I was with Joe. I use to have a girl best friend, but she moved away. I never really tried to make friends with girls after that because the girls at my school are so mean and catty. Fortunately for me, it didn’t matter to Joe how I looked. I’ve always been his best friend. He proved that to me in the 8th grade when a boy pretended to lead me on, but in the end just called me a fat ugly whore and said that nobody would ever want to date me. Joe punched him and told him to never talk to me like that again. I went home crying that day and stayed in my room. Joe came over, comforted me, and told me I was beautiful and that the boy at school was wrong. I wanted to believe him, but I didn’t. I still don’t really…
Joe and I have been having sleepovers at each other’s houses since forever. More so mine now, because Kevin wants to sleep and we keep him up with all of our talking and laughing. Our parents didn’t really mind us having sleepovers like most parents would. They trusted us, we’ve never given them a reason not to. Nobody knows what happened at the pond except us.
I barely see my mom anymore, because of all the dating she is doing. Ever since my dad died, she wanted to find somebody else. She didn’t want to be alone anymore. She started dating 7 months after the funeral. The Jonas’ practically adopted me. I spent so much time over there because she was at work, and at night she would be out on a date. There were a few times a month when she didn’t have a date and would spend time with me. I miss those times…she is too busy getting serious to spend time with me. A few day’s ago she left on a business trip with her newest boyfriend of a year, and she let me stay at the house by myself. The only thing was that I had to call her everyday and eat over at the Jonas’ house. I had no problem with the last thing.
“Ugh… you’re probably going to win…” Joe pouted. I grinned and moved my gingerbread man. Suddenly my cell phone went off. I looked at the caller ID and saw that it was my mom. She was supposed to be getting home today.
“Hey Mom!” I said excitedly. “Your back? Ok I’ll be right over!”
“What?” Joe asked.
“My mom’s home. She says there is something exciting that she wants to tell me.” I said getting up from the kitchen table. “ I’ll call you later.”
“You better. I want to know what is so exciting.” Joe said walking me to the front door.
“Gosh Joe, you always want to know everything.” I grinned at him.
“Can’t help that I’m nosy.” Joe shrugged his shoulders,
“Mhmm… right. Bye Joey.” He cringed when I said. I had been calling him that ever since we were little. He never liked when I called him that, and that’s exactly why I did. I walked home thinking about that day at the pond. Ever since that day my feelings for Joe had changed. Before I kissed him all I could think of him was just as a friend. But after that, the way I saw him was different. At first I didn’t like the kiss, but then I did. I never told Joe that I did, it would probably weird him out since he didn’t like it. I know I was only 7 but I started developing a crush on him… that I still have. I think it’s bigger now than it was then. I would love to be with Joe, but I know that’s only something I can dream of. Why he would want to be with me? I see the kind of girls he goes for. They are absolutely gorgeous, and then there’s me - fat, no make-up, un-dyed hair - completely natural. Believe me, natural is just not in where I live. There is no way he could fall in love with me.
I walked into my house and saw my mom. I ran up to her and hugged her.
“Hey honey! How’ve you been?” She asked as we pulled away.
“I’ve been good. The Jonas’ took good care of me.” I said happily. “So what exciting news did you want to tell me?” My mom led me into the kitchen. Standing in there was her boyfriend Scott. He was a bald buff guy.
“Honey… Scott and I are getting married.” Karen said gently. My smile instantly faded.
“Woah, wait. I could have sworn you just said you were getting married mom.” I couldn’t believe her.
“Sweet heart, I did. We are getting married.” My mom squeezed Scott’s hand. I stared at Scott and I swear I saw an evil glint in his eye.
“I can’t believe you would do this to me…to dad.” I said slowly backing away.
“What do you mean?” My mom let go of Scott and walked over to me.
“I thought you loved dad…” I said quietly.
“I still do, but sometimes… it’s best if you just move on.” My mom came over to hug me, but I moved before she did. “Why are you having such a problem with this? You never cared before when I was dating.”
“That’s because you were dating. I never thought you would actually get married!” I said feeling tears burn in the corner of my eyes.
“Honey, it will be good for us. Especially for you, having another father figure around…” She tried to hug me again, but I stepped away.
“Maybe I don’t want afather figure.” I gritted my teeth.
“Sweet heart, I promise it will turn out fine; you’ll be ok.” My mom said sweetly.
“I will never be ok with this. Not with Scott, not with anyone.” I said coldly. My mom looked surprised and walked over to Scott for comfort. I looked over at him and saw him smirk.
I stormed out of the room and ran upstairs. Tears that were beginning to come out, finally started to fall. I buried my face in my pillow and cried. I didn’t want a new father. I wanted my old one back. I know he died when I was young, but the memories I had of him I could never forget: the first time we went to a movie together, taking me to the playground, reading me to sleep at night and when he promised to teach me how to ride a bike when I was older. That memory never came true… he died before it could even happen.
I heard my mom talking to Scott about me. Saying things like ‘I don’t know what’s gotten into her’ and ‘She’ll warm up to you eventually.’ Yea right… I wanted to call Joe, but I left my cell phone downstairs, and I didn’t want to go back down there. I sighed and blinked back tears. Pretty soon, I fell asleep.4 HOURS LATER
I awoke to the sound of tapping on my window. I opened my eyes to see Joe standing on a tree limb, waiting for me to let him in. I quickly got up and opened my window.
“What are you doing here?” I asked.
“You weren’t answering your phone, so I came over here instead.” Joe crawled through the window. “ I was going to use the front door, but I looked in the window and saw your mom making out with some dude. I thought it best not to disturb them. So here I am now.”
“Well that dude you saw with my mom is going to be my new dad.” I scowled.
“Oh ok-“ Joe stopped, “Wait what?”
“I guess he proposed while they were gone.” I said and sat down on my bed.
“Do you like him?” Joe sat down next to me.
“No…” I looked down and played with my hands. It’s just something I always did when I was in an awkward situation or when I was upset.
“Maybe he’ll be a cool dad.” Joe said. I glared at him.
“I mean a cool guy!” Joe said quickly. He knew I didn’t want a new dad.
“It can’t be all that bad.” Joe looked at me. I shrugged my shoulders and played with my hands again.
“We’ll see.”

another kind of fiction

this is a fiction story from girls got game...

Intro
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It had been a full 365 day year since Chiharu last saw Kyo. She had gone to a different school until the heat from her previous secret died down. She hadn’t kept in touch with him, Yura, or anybody else on the Seisyu’s men basketball team. It was as if she had faded into non-existence, as if she had been forgotten by everyone except Chiharu. She was still a big part of his heart and would always be even if he never saw her again. Shortly after she had left he lost interest in basketball and quit the team. He only played just to get exercise. He did miss her but felt an urge to move on with his life. In order to function he had to try to forget, but as days turned into a year he hadn’t changed a bit he still thought about her and could see her clearly in his mind.



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Chapter One


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Chiharu laid in his bed facing the ceiling hovering between asleep and awake. He had had another weird dream about Kyo. He could feel her presence growing stronger and stronger each day, like she was right next to him.

Chiharu sat up in his bed and noticed that he still had on the same loose black pants he wore to a party the night before. He stretched and yawned then looked at the clock and once again he woke up before his alarm clock went off. He sighed and stood up then walked to the bathroom to start his morning routine.

After getting completely dressed in his school uniform he went back to the mirror in the bathroom then looked at his straight brown hair then sighed again. “I don’t care….” He said as he walked off to make himself breakfast.

He was the only one living in his two bedroom apartment and the only one paying a rent made for two people. Somehow he pulled it off but it wasn’t easy. After school he got a part time job at a fast food restaurant and had been promoted to manager, but still from time to time he wished he had a roommate that would make his troubles a little less burdensome. His life had been filled with very little excitement and got more boring every time he blinked.

Once he finished eating he grabbed his bags and headed out the door, his alarm clock going off as soon as the door slammed behind him.

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Later…..


Chiharu walked into his first class early and alone as always. He got to school early each day because Kyo wasn’t there to slow him down and he figured that that was an up side to not having her around. He sat down at his usually seat and rested his head on his cold hard desk and closed his eyes and enjoyed the silence of the classroom before everybody got there.

After having he head down for a few minutes he heard foot steps from down the hall but assumed that it was just a teacher. The foot steps got closer and closer then the door opened and then closed. Almost instantly a flowery scent filled the air. Its intoxicating scent filled Chiharu’s nostrils and forced him to look up. His eyes trailed up from the girl’s stylish black boots to her Seisyu uniform to her familiar face. He stared at the fully blossomed girl and his jaw nearly dropped but he contained himself. “Hey….Chiharu…..Long time no see.” Said a slightly altered tone of voice, it was more womanly then he had heard in the past.

“K-Kyo….?”

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80's Mania

Last Saturday, September 8, the seniors had their family day. The motif was: 80's Mania. So we're expected to wear fashion trends from the 80's or 80's outfit. I don't know really what to wear but I had a good one. hehehe.

I am just so excited on that day, not because of the food...but for the disco! My experience last year was really a great one, very terrific! Nothing compares....

The food were great! They tasted good, love it!

But the song...i don't really like it. it's so....you know, boring...80's.........

Though, i did have fun, at least just a little. Our moderator was so energetic that night in the disco. Me and my friends are having fun, taking pictures and dancing in the dim. woah! it's really cool.

it's raining pretty hard when we go home...i felt tired and sooo sleepy. I laughed at the video when I watch it at home. My friend was oh so funny. I don't want to mention name. =)

Marmalade Boy fiction

here's some stories from my favorite anime, Marmalade Boy!
Good Night, My love

Miki sat in her hotel room thinking about the recent events.
I still can't believe I’m going to marry Yuu! Well first we have to get our parent's approval. This'll definitely be a total shocker to them!
Miki smiled at the thought of her parent's faces. As fast as the smile came, it left just as quickly and was replaced with a sorrowful frown. Miki already missed Yuu. She had fallen asleep in his arms earlier, so of course he carried her to her hotel room and bed. She woke up a couple of minutes later from shrilling thunder outside.
I want to see Yuu so badly but I don’t want to wake him up either!
Suddenly lightening struck right in front of Miki's window, making her jump a foot in the air.
"That's it! I’m going over there!" she exclaimed to herself.
So she ran out the door, went to the next door, and started banging on it. As soon as Yuu answered the door she tackled him, making them both fall to the ground.
"Now, who do we have here?" Yuu said with a smirk.
"I just had to see you!" she said as she looked up at him with a smile. Yuu lightly chuckled and bent down and gently placed a kiss on her forehead.
"Did I wake you up?" Miki asked with a worried look.
"No," Yuu replied, “I was fixing to go to bed though."
"Um...Yuu?"
"Yes?"
"I was wondering...um..How do I say this...?”
"What is it, Miki?" Yuu asked, gently lifting her chin to look her in the eyes.
"I wanted to know if I could, uh, sleep with you tonight."
Before Yuu could reply, Miki quickly added, "Of course, not in the perverted way!"
"I know what you meant," Yuu said warmly, "Of course you can sleep with me." So Yuu and Miki got under the secure blankets of the hotel bed. Miki snuggled up against Yuu, and he put his arm around her.
"I love you, Yuu," Miki said in a whisper.
"I love you too."
"Good night."
Yuu gently kissed her lips and said, "Good night, my love.”

***end***

Love is a tradagy. For some it may come true, but for others it will forever be unrequinted, and move on to another. But for everyone their first love is one of the most special. So this, to you is a poem written from me, Miki, to you, Ginta. We are in our last year of junior high, and I just wanted to let you know before we forever forget what has happened in the past.


My illusion of love is not what it seems,
Or at least toward me,
Because can't you see,
I just want you to be with me.

We've known eachother for years,
Together or apart,
and in one way or another,
You have won my heart.

I would like to let you know,
Even if you aready do,
My heart aches,
Because I can not have you.

You may not love another,
but you do not love me,
and can't you see,
that is just as bad to me.

And so I shall say this,
as my some words to you,

My heart is true.

But only towards you.

I know that you have fully rejected my feelings toward you as more then friends. And with this, I would like to ask if you would like to restart our relationship when we enter high school. As total strangers who will learn to be friends once again, and this time maybe, I will be able to not have a stupid schoolgirl crush on you. If you would also like this, please meet me by the clock tower infront of the school on Friday. We can get a head start on our new life, as best friends.

-Miki

***ends***
Another day, another romance

Chapter 1

Miki was in her room writing in a diary to her best friend Meiko. She was just thinking to herself,'It's so boarding around here. I wish something good would happen.' She then said out loud without thinking,"Yea, like...true love." Just then Miki heard her parents calling her from downstairs. "Miki, come downstairs, we need to tell you something, importment," Miki's mother called her. "Coming!" Miki called back.

She put her diary down, and went downstairs thinking,'Hmm, I wonder what's up.'

"What's wrong Mom? Dad?" Miki asked as she walked into the kicthen. "Sit down dear," her mother said. Miki sit down. "Want a piece of cake?" Miki's mother asked her. "Uh..sure," Miki said. Her mother passed her a piece of cake. "Miki dear, we need you to listen to us without freaking out," Miki's mother said.

"Huh? What is it? What's wrong?" Miki asked.

"We decided, that we've both like to get a divorce," both of Miki's parents said. "WHAT!" Miki panicked,"Are you insanse!"

"What's going on here?"

"When we were on our little trip to Hawaii we met this really, nice couple, there the Matsuuras," Miki's father told her. "WHAT! The Matsuuras! Who are they!" Miki demanded. "A couple who was on the same tour group as us," Miki's mother said.

"Yup, and it wasn't long before, your mother fell in love with Mr. Matsuura, and I fell in love with his wife," Miki's father said. Miki's eyes went wide...like this... lol,"L...love?" Miki said as an anime sweatdrop appeared on her forehead.

"Yup, so we all just decided to swap partners and remerry," Miki's father explained. "WHAT! Your going to...switch partners!" Miki started feeling kinda dizzy from the shock of it all. "ARE YOU CRAZY! Listen to yourselves this is insanse!" She told them. "Miki, dear we rediscovered love when me met the Matsuuras. So please forgive us, please Miki?" Miki's mother said.

"Hmm, I'm going to school!", Miki said as she, got a piece of toast, her school bag, and ran out the door, sobbing, thinking,'This is so insanse and way out of the line!' When she got to school, she found it very hard to consentrace, cause she was too busy thinking about what her parents were doing.

At the end of the day she told her best friend Meiko, what was happening. Miki was very upset. Meiko couldn't believe it,"I always thought that your parents were really close. I mean didn't they just get back from that long trip in Hawaii?" Meiko asked.

"Yea, it was that stupid trip! It caused this mess to happen," Miki said,"while on the trip they said they met another couple, the Matsuura couple. My father fell in love with Mrs. Matsuura, and my mother fell in love with Mr. Matsuura. They all decided to just swap partners. Just like that. I throught that my parents were always a little strange, but this is going too far."

Meiko just giggled as she said,"Are you kidding! Your lucky to have such cool parents. I really like 'em."

"Yea, that's just cause you don't have to live with them," Miki groaned. "No I'm serius. I like them better then my parents any day," Meiko said then looked down at the ground sadly as she said,"It's true. My parents merriage is a big mess. There both having affairs and don't love each other any more. But they won't devorce each other. My father worries about what people will think, and my mother has other reasons. I wish they had just ended it a long time ago. They have no idea how hard it is for a kid to watch there parents fight all the time. It hurts. That's why...I don't think I'll ever get married."

"Meiko, is that why you say, no to every guy who asks you out. Are you afaird?" Miki asked Meiko. "No, no, that's not it. It's just that none of those boys were my type. I may have a distrust in marriage, but I'm perfectly ok, with guys," Meiko said as she laughed.

Miki had this blank look on her face as if to say,"Yea right!" Just then Ginta, another one of Miki's friends ran up holding a tennis racket and a ball,"Hey, hey Miki, I'm gonna, catch in some pratice, wanna join me and work on our strokes?" He asked Miki.

"Uh, no sorry, and by the way, I won't be able to go to practice today," Miki said,"Could you apolgy to everyone?"

"Why? What's up, Miki?" Meiko whispered to Miki. "I'm meeting the Matsuuras, and I'm going to try to talk them all out of this, if it's the last thing, I do," Miki whispered back. "What did you over eat and get dierreer or something?" Ginta asked. "That's gross! I have family business!", Miki said as she gave Ginta a dirty look.

"Family, business huh? Ok, I'll tell the others," Ginta said. "Ok, 'by. Thanks for the help Ginta," Miki said. "No, problem," Ginta repiled. Miki then left, as she thought,'I'm not going sit around while they act way out of line,' she then stopped and screamed out without thinking,"I WILL STOP THERE PLAN!" Everyone looked at Miki like they thought something was wrong with her. "Uh...hehe," Miki said as a big sweatdrop appeared on her forehead. She then continued home.

Sweet Sixteen

Last September 12, 2007, Wednesday, was my birthday! I already turned sixteen...yah, sweet sixteen...hehehe.

I am just so happy that day...a lot of friends came into my classroom to see and greet me. One of my classmates told me that my classmates last year came to the class to see me before I arrived. I'm glad they still remember me.

I treated my close friends and classmates at McDo. I spend so much money but being with them on my birthday was priceless! Let me say it, "To give and not to count the cost...". I am just so sad that I can't invite and treat all of my friends.

For my sixteen years of existence, I am just so thankful to God that he gave me a wonderful life amidst the trials, pains, and sorrows. He gave me such wonderful blessings like a good family, good friends and good companions. There's no more than to live happily in this life. As what they always say, "Live the most of your life because life is short."

Count Down...

Let's have a count down... I know its sounds funny and dumb but here's my list...

My Top 10 Songs
1) Way Back Into Love[demo version]--- Hugh Grant and Drew Barrymore
2) Welcome To My Life---Simple Plan
3) When You're Gone---Avril Lavigne
4)Big Girls Don't Cry---Fergie
5) Beautiful Girls---Jojo
6) Samson---Regina Spektor
7) Irreplaceable---Beyonce
8) Thx 4 d mmrs--- Fall Out Boy
9) Umbrella---Rihanna ft.JZ
10) Do You know(the pingpong song)-- Enrique Iglesias

Top 5 Movie

1) Love Story (a classic movie, 1970's)---Ryan O'Neal & Ali McGraw
2) Marie Antoinette---Kirsten Dunst
3) Bring It On---Kirsten Dunst
4) Music & Lyrics---Hugh Grant & Drew Barrymore
5) The Others---Nicole Kidman

I feel like...

I feel like...I don't know. I'm happy when I received my report card. Thank God, my grade in Physics is 85. Thank God!

I am nervous for tomorrow's Sabayang Pagbigkas. We haven't muster our actions yet but I'm glad there's an improvement. God help us tomorrow. I won't expect that our class will be in the top three. But if God will allow it, I will be really happy.

I'm still sad...my cellphone is lost and I haven't find it yet. I'm still hoping that I can find it. :)

Hey Mickey! Bring It On!

I love this video. This is from the movie, Bring It On where Kirsten Dunst portrays a role as a cheerleader. Look at their bloopers. I love Kirsten Dunst as well as the song!

Good day!

Kirsten Dunst the best!!!!!!!

Kirsten Dunst is one of my favorite Hollywood stars.

I think she's pretty good. She's a good actress and receive several awards. Though, she remains humble. I like the way she look, she act, she smile(even though she smile like a vampire).

I like her movie, Bring it On--where she protrays a role as a cheerleader and Marie Antoinette--where she portrays a role as a Austrian princess who became the Queen of France. She's the wife of King....i forgot!

Date of Birth30 April 1982, Point Pleasant, New Jersey, USA
Birth NameKirsten Caroline Dunst
NicknameKiki
Height5' 7" (1.70 m)
Mini Biography
Kirsten Caroline Dunst was born on April 30, 1982 in Point Pleasant, New Jersey, USA to Klaus Dunst, a German medical-services exec. who's now stationed in New Jersey while the rest of his family lives on the West Coast. Klaus separated from Kirsten's mother Inez Dunst, a former art-gallery owner. She also has a brother named Christian, who was born in 1986. Kirsten started out in showbiz at the age of three, where she began filming television commercials (a grand total of more than 70). She made her feature film debut in a segment of Woody Allen's 1989 film New York Stories (1989). Shortly after in the same year her family moved to Los Angeles, where her film career took off. In 1994 she made her breakthrough performance in Interview with the Vampire: The Vampire Chronicles (1994) alongside such stars as Brad Pitt and Tom Cruise. Her performance earned her a Golden Globe nomination, the MTV Award for Best Breakthrough Performance and the Saturn award for Best Young Actress. In 1995, she was named one of People Magazine's 50 Most Beautiful People. Over the next few years she made a string of hit movies including Little Women (1994), Jumanji (1995) and Small Soldiers (1998). 2000 was Kirsten's biggest year yet - she received rave reviews for her role as Lux Lisbon in Sofia Coppola's Independent film The Virgin Suicides (1999). She proved her status as a leading actress in the comedy hit Bring It On (2000), and she graduated from Notre Dame High School in Los Angeles in June of that year. She is now working on her own production company with her mother called "Wooden Spoon Productions."IMDb Mini Biography By: http://www.imdb.com/SearchBios?TrendEkiD@aol.com
Trivia
Was a Ford model as a child.
Beat out Christina Ricci for roles in Interview with the Vampire: The Vampire Chronicles (1994) and Little Women (1994).
Attended the Anne Rice's Memnoch Ball in New Orleans in 1995.
One of People Magazine's 50 Most Beautiful People of 1995.
Parents are separated. She lives with her mother Inez, and brother Christian in Southern California.
She is working on her own production company with her mother called "Wooden Spoon Productions". The name symbolizes women and creativity. It was inspired by her grandmother, who used wooden spoons to keep her in line when she was a girl.
Graduated from Notre Dame High School, a private Catholic high school in Los Angeles, in May/June 2000.
Turned down the role of Angela in American Beauty (1999).
Went to the Ranney School in Tinton Falls, New Jersey up until the sixth grade, when she left to pursue her career in California.
Made her singing debut performing the song "Dream Of Me" from Get Over It (2001).
Nabbed the lead role of Peter Parker's girlfriend, Mary Jane Watson, in Spider-Man (2002) after Kate Hudson and Alicia Witt turned it down.
She performed her first screen kiss, at the tender age of 11, with Brad Pitt in the movie Interview with the Vampire: The Vampire Chronicles (1994).
Name is pronounced "Keer-sten" (not "Kur-sten").
One of People Magazine's 50 Most Beautiful People of 2002.
One of Teen People Magazine's "25 Hottest Stars under 25" [2002]
She is Swedish and German.
Furthered her singing career with a song that appears durings the end credits to The Cat's Meow (2001).
Voted the 2nd Sexiest Female Movie Star in the Australian Empire Magazine September 2002.
Auditioned along with Kate Hudson to replace Sarah Polley for the role of Penny Lane in Almost Famous (2000), she didn't get the part but Cameron Crowe later said it was "very, very close".
She and Jake Gyllenhaal have broken up after two years of dating (2004).
Her nickname is Kiki as when she was a child she could not pronounce Kirsten. She then provided the voice of Kiki in the English dubbing of the Miyazaki animated feature, Majo no takkyûbin (1989) (aka "Kiki's Delivery Service").
Her favourite store is Blue Bag.
Is a big fan of the British television show "Da Ali G Show" (2000).
She was offered the role of Chrissy in Now and Then (1995), but she turned it down as the role required her to gain weight.
Her favorite show is "Friends" (1994).
Her favourite movies are Annie Hall (1977) and Edward Scissorhands (1990).
Is a fan of the television show "Curb Your Enthusiasm" (2000).
According to producer Mark Gordon, she visited her then boyfriend Jake Gyllenhaal at the set of the film The Day After Tomorrow (2004) and that visit gained her an uncredited cameo appearance
Ranked #25 in Stuff magazine's "102 Sexiest Women in the World" (2002).
Is a fan of the television show "The Office" (2001) and admits she is a huge fan of Ricky Gervais.
Like her Bring It On (2000) character "Torrance Shipman," Kirsten was a cheerleader in high school.
She wore a red wig in Spider-Man 2 (2004).
She was called back to reshoot some scenes for Get Over It (2001) while filming the first Spider-Man (2002) movie, which explains why her character suddenly goes from blond to red in a few scenes.
Hosted the MTV Movie Awards in 2001 along with Jimmy Fallon
Jake Gyllenhaal gave Kirsten a gray and white kitten for her birthday. She named the cat Sophie.
Takes Tap dancing lessons.
Was ranked #15 in E's 50 most cutest child stars all grown-up.(2005)
Was ranked #15 in E's most cutest child stars all grown-up.(2005)
Her grandparents Hermann and Inge Dunst live in Hamburg.
Dyed her hair red for Spider-Man 3 (2007).
Dyed her hair brown for her role in Mona Lisa Smile (2003).
Lives in New York and Los Angeles. [2007]
Was originally cast as Clear Rivers in Final Destination (2000).
Personal Quotes
"I'd like to grow up and be beautiful. I know it doesn't matter, but it doesn't hurt."
Boys frustrate me. I hate all their indirect messages, I hate game playing. Do you like me or don't you? Just tell me so I can get over you.
Why would I cry over a boy? I would never waste my tears on a boy. Why waste your tears on someone who makes you cry?
On turning down the role of Angela in American Beauty (1999): "When I read it, I was 15 and I don't think I was mature enough to understand the script's material. I didn't want to be kissing Kevin Spacey. Come on! Lying there naked with rose petals?".
"My cat, because he's fun to play with, he'd entertain me, and I could eat him if I was really hungry." (on what her luxury item would be on survivor)
"I'm never going to say anything about who I'm dating unless I'm married or engaged." - 2002
"I run the treadmill whenever I can do it with weights." (when asked how she stays in shape) - 2002
"Everybody smokes! Models, actresses, everyone! Don't they realize that it's gross? I understand it's an addiction, but it still pains me to see my friends do it."
"So many teen films are overproduced and people are going to burnout on the subject."
"I think vegetarians - for a lot of them - it's about a lack of commitment to life and relationships. There are some who just like the fact that they're controlling something in their life."
"And in the next film they've got to bring in another female character. Just give me the acting; she can do all the falling and fighting."
(on money) "I think one of my credit cards is corporate for my company, Wooden Spoons Productions. I don't know; my financial adviser does that. I don't handle that shit."
"I want to go on "Crossing Over with John Edward" (1999). I'd like to be regressed to find out about my past lives".
(On Spider-Man (2002))"I really wanted the role because I knew it would give my career a boost, especially in foreign markets where I don't feel I'm that well known".
"The Virgin Suicides (1999) showed I could nail a very difficult character, while Bring It On (2000) brought a great deal of joy to young girls. These are the beautiful rewards of being an actress".
"On every film I do, whenever there are other girls my age, I think it's definitely up to me to set the pace. That's because I've had a lot of experience and I think there's always a certain amount of professionalism that should be maintained."
(On Bring It On (2000)): We're breaking boundaries. And we're not doing the same old little cliché of, "Oh, cheerleaders are dumb, so let's make fun of them".
"I have never done a drug in my life. I tried smoking once. Hated it. I don't want to infect myself with cancer."
"Whenever I have to smoke for a character, I make sure they're fake cigarettes. It's a terrible habit, and I can't believe kids still want to do it."
"What actor do you really take seriously who becomes a singer? It's kind of ridiculous. I can't think of anybody."
"It would actually be really interesting if Spider-Man died. Why doesn't the superhero ever die? I think if Mary Jane was alone, pregnant and he died, she could give birth to a spider baby and carry on the series with another young boy or something like that." - July 2004
(On kissing Brad Pitt in Interview with the Vampire: The Vampire Chronicles (1994) ): "It was horrible, I hated it. Brad and Tom were like my big brothers on the set, so it was like kissing your big brother - totally gross."
"You know that feeling when you wake up in the morning and you're excited for the day? That's one of my main goals in life." quoted in Womans World (1-24-06)
I don't try to be sexy, but if you are sexy it comes out. If you're not, you're not.
On Marie Antoinette (2006): "It's kind of like a history of feelings rather than a history of facts. So don't expect a masterpiece theatre, educational Marie Antoinette biopic".
Salary
Marie Antoinette (2006)
$8,000,000
Elizabethtown (2005)
$8,000,000
Wimbledon (2004)
$5,000,000

SEND MY LOVE TO HEAVEN
~Broken][Shadow~
What could I say about a girl I loved since I was ten... that I loved the way she laughed; the way she fussed over silly things, and even the way she cried over some sad silly late night shows. Somehow, I've wished I could have told her that I loved her but there was no hope in doing so. It was too late... too late a love like an unfilled curtain.

She was my best friend and I have known her ever since my childhood began. She knew all my secrets; but if she dug it well, a riddle would have revealed my feeling on her; that I loved her more than I loved myself. Not just because she was pretty and smart, but also the way she put her life in a house-filled bottle.

I could still remember the first time we had met; I was five years old then. It was another windy afternoon having no one to play with. When I climbed up in my tree house, I saw a moving truck coming down the street. I watched it approaching and noticed a family station wagon following it. It had stopped right in front of my tree house and out came a family. I was about to glance away when I saw this loveliest girl coming out from the said wagon. She was four years old at that time; but even at an early age, she definitely had a beauty. She had a long silky hair reaching below her waist. Having a fair complexion and wonderful eyes could make one tongue-tied into such. I continued watching her. Suddenly, she looked up and saw me watching over them from my tree house's window. I was about to go down when she grinned and waived her hand in the distance. I waived back and then stared in amazement as I recognized her running towards my tree house.

I went at the edge of the ladder and asked her, "Would you like to come up?" She answered, "Are you allowing me?" I helped her climbed up. When she felt safe at the top, she turned to me and said, "By the way, my name is Sam, what is yours?" "Christopher! But you can call me Chris", as I replied. She smiled. "Well I like your name, and besides, this tree house is cozy". Then I stammered, cursing my ineptitude. "Thanks! My friend and I made this. This is our hide out. We used to goof around, play ball, and go bumping together. He was my best friend and I'm kind of missing him. His family has just moved out two weeks ago..." She tapped my shoulder and said, "I'm here now, we could do things you do with your friend and I could be your best friend too. I never had a boy for a friend before, so it could be exciting to have one. I could learn how to play ball and I have my bicycle so we could go biking together. Now, tell me, how does that sound to you?" My lips tingled on my reply as if everything becomes interesting. "Well that sounds good!" As she felt the cold air sheltering inside, she embraced herself and instantly imparted her last words. "It's a deal then!"

Suddenly, we became best friends and it was a kind of strange at first. She was a girl and there were things I hesitantly indulge with her like catching frogs in the pond, swimming in the beach, and climbing trees. However, she tried and did everything to please me. There was a time when she fell off the bike trying to catch up with me in a race. I healed her scraped knee by having it tied with my handkerchief. I could still remember the time when she hit the window of our neighbor while we were playing baseball. I talked to Mr. Chambers and promised to pay for the damaged part, which meant having to loose a week's allowance.
I also recall the time I fell off the tree when I tried to rescue a little kitten for Sam, who was near to tears when she saw it helplessly trapped in a branch. I get even fought with the tough guys when they teased Sam. I ended up having a black eye and a bruised cheek. Sam was crying as she placed an ice bag over my injured eye and later gave it a get-well kiss. I did everything to please her and gave everything to her little heart's desire.


The beach was our favorite hang out. We had our Saturday swimming routine. We packed up food and later eat them under the big oak tree. There was a special branch in which the two of us could sit under and melancholy foretells each other's dreams. She dreamed of being a Ballerina and she knew my dream of becoming an Accountant someday. She never criticized my pursuits as if they were quite impossible on my part. It made me like her even better when she laid her back against mine. That water with ebbing effects; those leaves that fall behind us; and those wind blows that make us closer to each other. They were all representing how the nature agrees on our circumstances.

As years went by, I noticed that my feelings towards her were simultaneously getting different. Somehow, I thought it was just a simple crush case. But when I started thinking about her at night; dreaming of her in the middle of a sleep, and having a feeling of wanting to be with her all the time, I thought it was something strange, but then it was exhilarating feeling. It even made me feel so alive. Every time we touched each other's hands, I could feel the tingling sensation in my spine. Once, we were at the beach having our Saturday swimming routine. I carried her towards the shore and had a feeling like I didn't want to let go. I've just wished that moment would never come to an end. Since then, I realized that I was sincerely falling in love with my best friend.

Many times, I tried to deny my feelings on her. I was scared to imagine what would happened if I'd try to tell her what I surely feel for her. I was scared because she might think that I was selfishly taking advantage of our friendship. I was afraid she might lose me someday.

At the age of 15, I noticed that Sam grows lovelier each day. How my heart ached whenever I see boys glanced her way. I wanted to punch them as I realized them talking to her; giving compliments, flowers, chocolates and whatever. There were times when I used to watch her yonder; with a mix of anger and frustration on my point of view, I learned how to hate myself for I couldn't even introduce to her my love. I couldn't even find a word to say that I'm dying for her and that I couldn't live without her.

One day, I just heard from a friend that she already had a boyfriend. At first, I tried to convince myself that it was just a rumor. Her boyfriend was Mark, a popular senior, who was the heartthrob of the campus. She, being the cheerleader was close to the basketball team where Mark played as the captain. When I saw them walking together at the parking lot late afternoon, I peered her with my heart slowly breaking into pieces. She noticed me but I pretend I couldn't see her. I was afraid that she might traced in my eyes the pain I was hiding while she's with the guy.

Those days that followed where the saddest days of my life. How my heart squealed when I see her walking by me with Mark at her side. Every time we meet in hallways with Mark around her, there's always an urge to grab her away from him. How it hurt to see the loveliest girl I've known was then owned by somebody else. A special smile that was for me was then casted to the other guy. If she could only notice my stolen words, "Oh God, how I love that girl…"

Then one faithful day, they broke up. She came too me at evening and laid her head on my shoulder. She had a big conflict with her boyfriend and it ended up to a break up. A lot of things I felt inside. Another thing I knew was that, she was free and maybe I would have the second chance of telling her what I really felt for her. It’s too bad that she was being obsessed with the guy. At that time, I certainly get confused where all those things must have been started.

We found ourselves doing what we did during old days with our Saturday swimming habit and spending time hanging out with our tree house. We enjoyed doing childish pranks because we both still young at heart.

Chances were everywhere to hit the point of turning back. She made me lived again after my darkest days. That was it... with a girl who came back in my arms; I imagined sometimes the secret that had been unleashed. I imagined she's aware of my infatuation. But losing her exaggerated my brain because of the truth she never knew. All I did was as usual as it was. Things must have been kept even if it's busting inside my heart.

It was a week before our JS Prom; we sat under the oak tree drying ourselves right after our afternoon swimming episode. She asked me a favor, "I was wondering Chris if you would like to be my partner?" It just got out of my wits for it was like a dream I never thought would happened. It took me awhile to react, "I thought there are boys out there dying to become your partner?" I doubted if it was a good answer, as if showing her that it was out of my concern. But if she could only knew how the stars collide in my own constellation. If she could only knew how I loved to hear it over and over until her words ran out of rhyme. She turned away and murmured, "Well, I just thought I'd like to spend that night with my best friend." Then she pursued whispering as I could barely hear her voice, "Don't you want to be my Prince, Chris?" I stunned to speak because it had come close to blurt all what I felt for her. We remained silent for awhile until I finally imparted my conclusion, "I would be happy to be your partner, Sam!" She smiled and suddenly kissed my cheek. I could hardly felt the bliss she gave to me. I recognized her face turning into a pinkish blush, as if she never knew what have she done. She stood up and ran towards the shore leaving her words, "Last one to reach the shore would treat into a Sundae Fudge!" I slowly ran before her so that I would lose her dare, which meant having her with me for another three hours and more.

Our Prom night came. I bought a new tuxedo and poured it a perfume. I went to fetch Sam. Her Mom approached me as I went to sit in the couch waiting for Sam to come down. I was talking to her Dad when I heard a rush stating, "How do I look?" I looked up and saw her walking down the stair; getting lovelier than ever in a strapless white noble dress with her hair flowing around her face. I stood up and get stucked, as if I couldn't find my voice to shout to her my affection on her beauty. I got her hand and shakily fastened the corsage around her wrist.

"To the loveliest girl in the whole world..." She asked, "Is that true?" I nodded and she smiled the moment I opened the door for her.
When we arrived at the gymnasium, we could hardly recognize our classmates. Gone were the jeans and t-shirts. They wore tuxedos and gowns but Sam’s gown has the power to be respected by such. I held out her hand, bowed and said,” You look magnificent tonight, would you give me the honor of your first dance?" She laughed and curtseyed. Then I led her to the dance floor as the music changed into its greatest harmony.

It was like a dream come true; a moment of enchantment. I was there dancing with the only girl I've ever loved. She was smiling up to me, as we were harmoniously getting into a smooth gliding motion. I found myself lost as I stared down to her sparkling eyes. The curls of her long hair were like waves enhancing her beautiful face. Until my heart wanted to speak. I wanted to tell her that I loved her so much. I drew up all my courage to whisper it in her ear but suddenly, the music had stopped and the magic was gone. I came close to telling her, but still have not done it yet.

We walked towards the table and found ourselves surrounded by friends. I asked her if she wants a drink, she nodded and so I went to get one. It took me a long time to get a drink. When I returned to the table, she was gone. I asked her friend, Katie, where she was but she told me that she didn't notice her. So I went forward and searched for my girl.

In the garden, I saw two silhouette figures outlined by the moon's silvery light. They were so closed to each other. I couldn't describe the feeling then I recognized the white noble dress Sam was wearing. I get inside and left the Prom. Since that night, I avoided her. Many times, she tried talking to me but I never gave her the chance to do so. I was afraid to hear from her mouth that she loved Mark instead of me. Id rather had left in ignorance than knowing from those dreaded words, the truth she really felt for the guy. Those months were tormenting but still I kept my pride. I knew all those things were killing me, but it was the best way to forget her and to get away from my bad emotions.

During my Graduation Day; I was planning to take up Accountancy far away from my village. At the end of the program, she approached me and handed me a rose. When she stared at me, there was something in her eyes that I couldn't define. There was sadness on her that it wasn't the same smile I've seen before. I wanted to hug her so that she would know for the last time, all my passions on her. But she's gone and walked away, just like a newly freed butterfly.

I moved out the next day as I planned. Luckily, I was accepted at the university. I was down with my studies but still I think of her every night. I was always wondering if she thinks of me too. I tried not to think of her but still I couldn't stop myself from loving her. Every achievements in my life were definitely inspired by the loveliest girl I've ever known, and that was Sam.

"One day, I will be successful. I would tell her the truth from my heart, and by that time, I'm worthy of having her forever..."

Four years after, I decided to come back home. I was excited not just because I was all grown up and I have learned how life should be; but also, I have gained a lot of courage during the past four years. As I got off the plane, I immediately went home. Along with the bus, I imagined her embraces when she would knew the reason I came back. I imagined how we celebrate our old time swimming routine just like what we had at young age. I imagined how the weather cheers with our happiness to be with each other again. I was desperate to see her and tell her that I miss her so much, and that I have loved her since then.

At their house, I saw her older sister Jenny and then I approached her. I've given my homecoming smile but I noticed she didn't smile back. I was confused for she used to be as cheerful as Sam. "I guess you are surprised of my homecoming. I just want to visit you and I am also hoping to see Sam. By the way, have you seen her?”

I have no premonition of everything because my excitement didn't want to rest. Until I heard Jen...

"Come follow me!” breathlessly spoken.

So I followed her with a little confusion in my head. I tried to change the phase of her day and indulged in a wild conversation. I realized that she couldn't afford of a very enthusiastic mood. I carefully noticed that she was leading me to the direction of the beach. In the distance, I saw the old oak tree that Sam and I used to climb up. It was already a decayed tree with empty leaves on its twigs. I thought of it as a symbol of my eternal love for her. But then, it seemed like a legend of a mysterious history, delineating the effect of a drought intrusion. In the middle of the journey, I smiled upon remembering the kiss Sam had given me when I agreed to be her partner. Though the place was starting to fade, I could still adhere to the callings of my memories with her. When we get closed to the tree, Jen had pointed...

"There is Sam!"

I looked at where she was pointing and saw a newly dug tomb with the name of the girl I've ever loved. I couldn’t believe at what I saw and desperately tried convincing myself that was all just a nightmare and I would soon wake up.

I stared at Jenny in disbelief with her eyes searching for explanations and slowly started saying," It has been a week since she died. She died of Leukemia, but even though she was sick, she never stopped thinking about you. It was even your name she uttered before she died. She asked us to bury her here for she always regards this place as a place of LOVE. She said that this is where she had spent her happiest days and that was when she was with you. By the way, she also asked me to give you this."

She handed me a parcel and with that she left. I slowly opened the parcel and saw that it had with it a dried orchid from the corsage I gave her from our Prom. Then at the bottom, I saw a letter. It was dated last month. I opened it with shaking hands and started reading...

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I know by this time you read this letter I'm gone. I just want to tell you that I feel very lucky and thankful to God that I had a friend like you. I would also like you to know that I had left something inside, something I kept from you all these years. I love you Chris, not in a friendly way but as one who would feel like spending the rest of my life with. I have always loved you even from the start. I guess it's getting fonder each day that's why the happiest day of my life was when you were at my side. You just don't know how I dreamed of you at night and wake up in the morning with the thoughts of you in my head. When you're away from me, I can't stop crying because I'm afraid you are with another girl. I just can't bear to see you with another girl. I just want you all for myself. I may sound selfish but that's how I feel. Each time you held me close to you was just like a dream come true. So many things I did so that you will learn to love me but I never saw a hint. I did everything to please you because I love you so much. I even tried to fool myself that you're in love with me. So many nights I've cried when I think of myself unloved by you. And my heart speaks the truth for I cannot bear telling a lie to the one I love.

I know you might be thinking of Mark but I just did that to make you jealous, to make you see me as a young woman, capable of loving and not as the little girl you used to play with. Sometimes I imagined that you were jealous and fooled myself that it was a sign that you feel something for me too. When Mark and I broke up and I came crying, I just did that to know how you would react and so that I would know if you feel the same way too. But I failed because you didn't give me any clue.

When our Prom night came, you just don't know how happy I was when you handed me the corsage and said that I was the loveliest girl in the whole world. While we were dancing, I wanted so desperately to hear you say that you loved me but still you never did. When Mark came and pleaded me to give him a second chance, I was scared that you might see us talking. I didn't want you to get the wrong impression so I told him we would talk in the garden. There I explained to him that it's you whom I really loved the most. What happened next was that you're gone and later learned that you were searching for me. I came to my conclusion that you saw us together.

The next day, I tried to explain but then you never gave me a chance. You continuously avoided me and yet, you never knew how much pain I've suffered. I felt the world crushing on me.

On our Graduation day, I wanted to tell you how much I loved you but I just couldn't do it. I couldn't bear to hear that all you feel for me was just a brotherly hand of love. I just want you to love me as a woman and not as your playmate. So I just turned away and left.

Now that saying I LOVE YOU might be too late. I want you to know that I will always love you and my heart has always been and will be yours alone.

P.S. Think of me sometimes... and always remember that, loving you was the best thing that ever happened in my entire life.

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I felt my tears falling as I folded the letter. I wanted to shout out to let her know that I loved her, if not as much, but more than she did for me. I love her more than anything in this world. Just like the old tree, Sam was gone. Gone away with the wind and within her was the love I failed to know. I knelt touching the soil of her grave as the rain started to fall. I cried with my painful tears and softly whispered... "Oh God, send my love to heaven."

~The End~Copyright2005Razul Tahil Sandayan
www.mister_z88@yahoo.com

Remembering the Moments with the Beez

chuy...

makahilak pud tah...

i miss Pongracz really!!!

We'll Share These Moments Forever

The moments of caring,
the moments of sharing
They're the times that mark the miles stones
along life's way
They're the miracles of
love that happen ev'ry day
We'll share these moments forever
the laughter, the cares,
our hopes and our prayers
We'll share these moments forever
the joy and the tears of life through the years
These moments will live forever
A lifetime together,
a lifetime to remember
You and I have found so many memories
In the precious moments shared
with friends and family
We'll share these moments forever
the laughter, the cares,
our hopes and our prayers
We'll share these moments forever
the joy and the tears of life through the years
These moments will live forever
They're the times that mark the miles stones
along life's way
They're the miraclees of love
that happen ev'ry day
We'll share these moments forever
the laughter, the cares,
our hopes and our prayers
We'll share these moments forever
the joy and the tears of life through the years
These moments will live forever

haha..I just love the song!

Saturday...and Bad Trip!!!

It's saturday and we had a review this morning. The review was boring and I felt so hungry. We have no break. OMG. Get some things from the locker. Kyra, from 4-Garnet told me that I was accepted in Pag-Asa. OMG. I felt more nervous and happy too! Yippey!

After the review, went to SM with Dafodille. The raczians were there but I just stay with Dafodille. I ate my lunch at BBQ Station in-front XU with Dafodille. Then, we surf on the net at the Cyberia for only an hour and went home.

Find my birth certificate...went to Xavier heights for the registration for Sangguniang Kabataan or SK. Fill out the forms. Bad trip at the jeepney because of that ungentleman guy. XU main. Went home...surf the net again???!!!

No Class Again!!!

Yehey! High school and college students have no class today so that we'll have an oppurtunity to be registered for SK. Good thing our masquerade ball was postponed next, next monday!!!

I had fun yesterday because me and my friends went to SM after class to play dance revo. I love playing it though I am not really good at it. Thanks to Kenneth and Mikaela to the rescue when I'm in danger zone..hehe.

Class Banner of Blessed Rupert Mayer

the 4-blessed rupert mayer banner!!

This is our banner!!!

Mind you, it's second placer in the contest!

And I'm proud of it!

glitterzzzz....

It's just about me!!!

these are our pics during revisitation at dahilayan.
I made this long before but I haven't posted it yet. Good thing I have posted it.