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Monday, March 31, 2008

super addict









my co-CyberTropa is just driving me crazy

they already tell me that i am obssessed but hell no!
it is just..uhm, well, called fabatic, haha!

obssession to the max















kaila mo ug adik?

Tuesday, March 04, 2008

High school never ends!!!!

After three days of cramming, studying, praying and several sleepless nights, the senior's final examination has finally come to an end! How's the last and final exam in high school? Well, some were quite hard and some were a bit easy. I'm sure I'm going to miss the time when I have to cram up for a test or exam.
I am so happy that the exam is over but I feel nervous to the result of the exam. I hope the best, not just for me, but for the whole batch as well, especially class 4- Blesssed Rupert Mayer.










*** As we go on, we remember all the times we had together.
And as our lilves change, come whatever, we will still be friends FOREVER!!! ***

Saturday, March 01, 2008

one day to go!

One day to go and exam will be over! Then I will graduate in high school (hopefuly!)

Please Hear What I'm Not Saying

Please Hear What I’m Not Saying
Don’t be fooled by me.
Don’t be fooled by the face I wear for I wear a mask.
I wear a thousand masks, masks that I’m afraid to take off and none of them are me.
Pretending is an art that’s second nature with me but don’t be fooled,
for God’s sake don’t be fooled.
I give you the impression that I’m secure
that all is sunny and unruffled with me within as well as without,
that confidence is my name and coolness is my game.
That the water’s calm and I’m in command, and that I need no one.
But don’t believe me. Please!
My surface maybe smooth but my surface is my mask,
my ever-varying and ever-concealing mask.
Beneath lies no smugness, no complacence.
Beneath dwells the real me in confusion, in fear, in aloneness.
But I hide this.I don't want want anybody to know it.
I panic at the thought of my weaknessesand fear exposing them.
That's why I frantically create my masks to hide behind.
They're nonchalant, sophisticatedfacades to help me pretend,
To sbield me from the glance tha knows.
But such a glance is precisely mysavation, my only salvation, and I know it.
That is, if it's followed by acceptance, if it's followed by love.
It's the only thing that can liberate me from my
own self-built prison wallsfrom the barriers that I sopainstakingly erect.
That glance is the only thing that assures me of whatI can't assure myself,
that I'm really worth somehting.
But don't tell you this.
I don't dare.
I'm afraid to.
I'm afraid you'll think less of me,
that you'll laughand your laugh would kill me.
I'm afraid that deep-downn i'm nothing,
that I'm just no good and youwill see this and reject me.
So I play a game, my desperate,pretending game
with a facade of assurance without.
And a trembling child within.
So begins the parade of masks--
The glittering but empty parade of masks,
And my life becomes a front.
I idly chatter to you in suave tonesof surface talk.
I tell you everything that's nothingAnd nothing of what's everything,
of what's crying within me.
So when I'm going through my routine.
Do not be fooled by what I'm saying.
Please listen carefully and try not to hear what I'm saying.
Hear what I'd like to say butwhat I cannot say.
I dislike hidding.
Honestly.
I dislike the superficial gameI'm playing--the superficial phony game.
I'd really llike to be genuineand spontaneous me,
But I need your help,your handto holdEven though my masls would tellyou otherwise.
It will not be easy for you.
Long felt inadequacies make my defenses strong.
The nearer you approach methe blinder I may strike back. D
espite what books say of men,
I am irrational;I fight against the very thingthat I cry out for.
You wonder who I am?
You shouldn't for I am everyman
and everywoman who wears a mask.
Don't be fooled by me.
At least not by the face I wear.