It's killing me softly and painfully...

Please beh!!
Can anyone kill me at an instance??!!
shoot me! kill me! i'm through with this. i'm tired of this.
my heart is already broken...broken into pieces like grains of sand!!!

i'm so sick of getting F after another F. F here..F there...F anywhere!! Please beh! grbe ka F!! T__T
I'm blinded with the dark future...grrrrrr!!! Can i still recover?..Can I? Can I? How? Show me the way!!!

Okay...I know this is too much...too sickening...to painful!! But I must admit, I'm not that smart you know. My iQ is just average or maybe below average. I must admit it's shameful in my part. I must accept the facts and embrace reality. The fact is I'm not that smart and reality is, life is difficult! Who says it easy? it's never gonna be easy! never ever until forever will cease to ever!

I must see life in a positive way as I always see it. Haha.
Never look back coz yesterday's gone and look forward to a new beginning.
My professor in Law comforted us after seeing that we are lifeless and tired and feeling that we are so negative: "Class, always think positive. The problem with you is that you always think negatively. Life is indeed difficult but it's a matter of attitude. And, just pray always."
i just want to quote from yesterday's homily: "Never envy. Never despair. Never Give up. The Cross will give us hope. It will give us strenght...be positive...it's all about attitude..."
 I totally agree!!!!